Crazy... that's the story of my life. I think I'm going crazy most days. Running in circles, running in place, always running here there everywhere. All this running must be really paying off. I've lost 165 lbs. I am getting so close to my goal and I'm not even half way through my expected weight loss window. I am so proud of myself for MANY reasons. It's weird to be proud of myself, I've never done that before. I never really had much of a reason to be happy with myself. I just always settled for blase. I was never truly HAPPY. Yesterday I went to a garage sale. I bought some XL shirts and planned to use them for late winter. I thought they would fit by then. I've been wearing 1X or 2X lately. My boobs have done some more shrinking because my bras are getting big again. I don't much like this part, they are beginning to look like deflated balloons. It's kinda sad. My whole body kind of looks like a deflated balloon in places. Oh well, at least I am getting healthy. That is all that matters. I feel healthier now than I have in years and years. It's pretty awesome to feel good. I always thought I felt good, but boy was I wrong!
I am starting up a surgical weight loss support group through our local hospital. I am so happy about this. Meetings will be the 2nd wed of every month from 4-5:30 and the 4th Thurs of every month from 6:30-8. I am so happy for this opportunity to offer this to people in the surrounding area. We need a group and an outlet to get together and chew the "fat" about our surgeries, struggles, successes and all. This thrills me. I hope we have awesome attendance and people from miles around start coming and can benefit from our support.
I've been really struggling to support a dear friend lately. He's going through so much right now and could really use some extra prayers. My heart is breaking for him and his entire family and friends. He's a pretty special part of our lives and I pray daily for him a miracle. He could really use one right now.
Mom, Shawn and I have an appointment with a psychic medium October 14th. I am so excited to go do this reading. I have so many things I want answered. I hope the people we want to reach will come forward and let us know they are with us. This excites me to no end. I am praying for some peace after this session. I need this.
I am having a Thirty One party tonight for my moms birthday. I hope we have a nice turn out. I have a lot of food cooked up. I made veggie soup, beer bread, spinach veggie dip, little weenies, chips, salsa, maid rites, sliced apples with caramel or fruit dip. It will be quite the spread! I am excited to see everyone. Should be fun!
I hope to earn mom something awesome for her birthday present with the free stuff from the party!
The circus is coming to town Sunday. The boys are going to LOVE it. I can't wait to capture the joy on their faces! It will be a nice family time. Bill is taking off work to go with us. This makes me happy! We rarely do family things, so this will be nice. Jeremy and Cassie also have him talked into going to West Point Iowa in Dec to take the boys on the Polar Express Train ride. It's fun and crafts, snacks and games, prizes for the kids. It sounds like an amazing experience. I think they will LOVE it! I'm happy he's agreed to go! It will be a nice family adventure!
Well time to take a little nap. Then it's party time!!!
The Frakes Family
Friday, September 30, 2011
Wednesday, September 28, 2011
Falling out, falling off
I have been super busy around here lately. I've been catching up on book work, so there's not so much to do for the end of the year cram. I've been cleaning, laundry, and picking up after the boys all day long. It's been crazy. Brody makes messes in no time at all. Just when I think I am getting something accomplished, he's making such a horrible mess someplace else that I never knew about. It's frustrating at times.
The weather is getting chilly. There's some days that I want to turn the furnace on, but have been trying really hard not to. I've been using the oven a lot and it really heats the place up. We've not had to turn the furnace on yet.
Bill's been so busy in the fields. He's been putting in long hours and they are getting quite a bit accomplished so far. The fields around our house are all out. It looks funny now to see the empty field once again, especially since it's been so tall for so long now. You can once again see for miles in a couple directions. It's neat. I love where our house sits and how far away you can see from here. Pretty nice.
Tonight Jeremy & Cassie and girls are coming out for fried chicken. We are all craving it and so I decided to cook it tonight. It will be our mid week treat.
My hair is falling out something awful. It hasn't really bothered me much up until this last few weeks. It's so stringy and thin and just looks awful, unless I just throw it up. Theres nothing there, so I have to use a ton of hair products to fluff it out and make it look like I actually have some hair. I'm working hard on taking all my daily vitamins and getting in all my protein. I have been using the Nioxin shampoo, conditioner, and leave in treatment. I sure hope it works well, I am starting to notice some regrowth, however in the mean time, this is bothering me so bad. I am going in today to get a cut. Not sure how drastic I will have to go to get it to look healthy. Right now it's so stringy and thin that I think some layers and depth will help it out a lot. I don't know, but I don't like it now. It's the longest it's been in years, so I hate to cut it off, but right now it looks awful.
Well I better get Cole up for school. It's picture day, so I have to pick something nice out for him to wear and he wants his hair done up to look nice. Maybe he will let me style it a bit? He's not into the spiked or gelled up hair, but I might tempt him for photos?
The weather is getting chilly. There's some days that I want to turn the furnace on, but have been trying really hard not to. I've been using the oven a lot and it really heats the place up. We've not had to turn the furnace on yet.
Bill's been so busy in the fields. He's been putting in long hours and they are getting quite a bit accomplished so far. The fields around our house are all out. It looks funny now to see the empty field once again, especially since it's been so tall for so long now. You can once again see for miles in a couple directions. It's neat. I love where our house sits and how far away you can see from here. Pretty nice.
Tonight Jeremy & Cassie and girls are coming out for fried chicken. We are all craving it and so I decided to cook it tonight. It will be our mid week treat.
My hair is falling out something awful. It hasn't really bothered me much up until this last few weeks. It's so stringy and thin and just looks awful, unless I just throw it up. Theres nothing there, so I have to use a ton of hair products to fluff it out and make it look like I actually have some hair. I'm working hard on taking all my daily vitamins and getting in all my protein. I have been using the Nioxin shampoo, conditioner, and leave in treatment. I sure hope it works well, I am starting to notice some regrowth, however in the mean time, this is bothering me so bad. I am going in today to get a cut. Not sure how drastic I will have to go to get it to look healthy. Right now it's so stringy and thin that I think some layers and depth will help it out a lot. I don't know, but I don't like it now. It's the longest it's been in years, so I hate to cut it off, but right now it looks awful.
Well I better get Cole up for school. It's picture day, so I have to pick something nice out for him to wear and he wants his hair done up to look nice. Maybe he will let me style it a bit? He's not into the spiked or gelled up hair, but I might tempt him for photos?
Saturday, September 17, 2011
Family Photos, Kidney stones, and more...
It has been a horrible week for me. I woke up with awful pain and didn't know what was going on? I knew I'd never felt pain like this before, so I woke up Bill and told him I needed to go to the ER. He said he'd take me. In the mean time I started puking because I hurt so damn bad. It was awful. It felt like awful labor pains, but worse menstrual cramps and this awful rectal pressure that made me feel like I had to pee and poop all the time. It was just a horrible time. I felt like I couldn't get comfortable. I paced the floors for hours until I finally woke up Bill. The trip to the hospital I had some relief because I just puked and it seemed to rid me of some of the pain. By the time I got to the ER I felt like an idiot because I had after effect pain, a dull ache and rectal pressure but no horrible pain like I had been feeling. The Dr was persistent with tests and there was blood in my urine so he ran more tests. After a CT it was discovered I had kidney stones. The Dr thought I passed one that morning, and that's why the pain went away, but there are 3 more behind it. He sent me home on pain meds and told me to rest up. I came home drugged myself up and went to sleep. Thank goodness Brody slept all afternoon too. I was OUT of it. I spent three days in a sleepy drugged up coma until I think I eventually passed at least one more. I feel so much better now. I just hope that the others don't bother me and that hopefully I passed all three at once and it's all over. I am totally off the caffeine. I had been before surgery, but I had been drinking some diet soda now and again, which I shouldn't have, but I now am not doing it at all. The Dr told me the stones were caused by calcium and high protein diets. Well that's my lifestyle in a nut shell now! So looks like this might be in my future again if my body responds to me like this, I don't think I will like it much. I have to stay on high protein diet. I also have to stay on my calcium and added D vitamins. Go figure. It's such a catch 22.
Our family did get photos taken last week. I am so thrilled with them. We LOVE them all it's going to be so hard to chose which ones to print for where! We have some ideas, but are working on putting them all together. Brandi Johnson took them and she worked well with the boys. I am so thrilled to have some skinnier pics of myself with the guys. It really means a lot to me to finally have some new photos.
I am glad to be pain free, but seriously trying to play catch up around here. There's laundry to do, dishes to do, floors to sweep. It's a shame how this house can become so darned messy in a couple days of doing nothing. All I was able to do was cook and barely that most days, so things have been piling up around here. I caught up dishes yesterday and then today. I also got laundry going and about done. I have two more loads to dry and fold-hang and put away.
Brody's been super clingy these last few days. It makes it hard to do things with him up my butt all day long. I love that kid to death, but sometimes he smothers me! It's frustrating that he's polar opposite of Cole. It really makes it hard on me to deal with such different kids some days. Just the attitudes and personalities are so different to deal with.
My weight loss is going good. I lost 4 lbs these last few days with this kidney stone. I wasn't eating much because of the pain. When I did eat, I threw up a lot because of pain. I am at 156 lbs lost as of today. I really feel good about my progress so far. I am so full of energy and full of life. I think it's improved my whole outlook on things. I am in size 16 clothing now. That makes me so happy. I love the fact that I can shop anywhere I desire and things will fit me . I actually don't have to go to the plus size section anymore unless I want a loose baggy shirt. I don't know who I am anymore. When I walk past a mirror I just do a second take and then have to just shake my head in surprise about my reflection. I really don't know how to put it into words except to say that my head hasn't quite caught up with my body just yet. It is strange to feel like that. This physical change happens so fast, faster than I ever imagined. It just feels awesome to have a "new" body to look at and to carry around. I think it's so strange because the fastness of it all really doesn't make sense to even me. 150 lbs in 7 months, WOWZERS! I've spent years and years seeing my reflection as one way, and now that I am totally different, it's strange to see, especially in such a short amount of time. The changes happened so fast that my brain just can't quite catch up yet! I'm not used to such vitality for life. I am not used to this added energy, I am not used to being so active and AWAKE in my own skin. I love every second of it. I will do all that I can for the rest of my life to stay this way. This is who I really am and who I have always meant to be!
Harvest has began. They have the combine all ready to go and have been shelling some corn the last few days. Bill's happy to be so busy and in the fields. I am happy that the fall feeling is here. I have all my fall decor out. My pumpkins, scarecrows, and scents burning in my scentsy pots. It smells and feels like fall. I have made some creamy tater soup for supper. It's simmering in the crock pot. It smells so yummy I can't wait to dig into it! I love love love fall! I love the coolness, the crispness of the leaves, the snuggles, the windows open, it melts my heart.
Our family did get photos taken last week. I am so thrilled with them. We LOVE them all it's going to be so hard to chose which ones to print for where! We have some ideas, but are working on putting them all together. Brandi Johnson took them and she worked well with the boys. I am so thrilled to have some skinnier pics of myself with the guys. It really means a lot to me to finally have some new photos.
I am glad to be pain free, but seriously trying to play catch up around here. There's laundry to do, dishes to do, floors to sweep. It's a shame how this house can become so darned messy in a couple days of doing nothing. All I was able to do was cook and barely that most days, so things have been piling up around here. I caught up dishes yesterday and then today. I also got laundry going and about done. I have two more loads to dry and fold-hang and put away.
Brody's been super clingy these last few days. It makes it hard to do things with him up my butt all day long. I love that kid to death, but sometimes he smothers me! It's frustrating that he's polar opposite of Cole. It really makes it hard on me to deal with such different kids some days. Just the attitudes and personalities are so different to deal with.
My weight loss is going good. I lost 4 lbs these last few days with this kidney stone. I wasn't eating much because of the pain. When I did eat, I threw up a lot because of pain. I am at 156 lbs lost as of today. I really feel good about my progress so far. I am so full of energy and full of life. I think it's improved my whole outlook on things. I am in size 16 clothing now. That makes me so happy. I love the fact that I can shop anywhere I desire and things will fit me . I actually don't have to go to the plus size section anymore unless I want a loose baggy shirt. I don't know who I am anymore. When I walk past a mirror I just do a second take and then have to just shake my head in surprise about my reflection. I really don't know how to put it into words except to say that my head hasn't quite caught up with my body just yet. It is strange to feel like that. This physical change happens so fast, faster than I ever imagined. It just feels awesome to have a "new" body to look at and to carry around. I think it's so strange because the fastness of it all really doesn't make sense to even me. 150 lbs in 7 months, WOWZERS! I've spent years and years seeing my reflection as one way, and now that I am totally different, it's strange to see, especially in such a short amount of time. The changes happened so fast that my brain just can't quite catch up yet! I'm not used to such vitality for life. I am not used to this added energy, I am not used to being so active and AWAKE in my own skin. I love every second of it. I will do all that I can for the rest of my life to stay this way. This is who I really am and who I have always meant to be!
Harvest has began. They have the combine all ready to go and have been shelling some corn the last few days. Bill's happy to be so busy and in the fields. I am happy that the fall feeling is here. I have all my fall decor out. My pumpkins, scarecrows, and scents burning in my scentsy pots. It smells and feels like fall. I have made some creamy tater soup for supper. It's simmering in the crock pot. It smells so yummy I can't wait to dig into it! I love love love fall! I love the coolness, the crispness of the leaves, the snuggles, the windows open, it melts my heart.
Tuesday, September 6, 2011
Labor Day Weekend
It was a crazy fun filled holiday weekend. The boys & Audra had their party. It was a lot of work setting up, decorating, cooking, cleaning, and getting things prepared, but the party went off without a hitch, and it was a BLAST!
Cole got his wildest dreams wish fulfilled. He wanted a 3 wheeler so badly, and Bill bought him one at an auction last month. He has kept it a secret until the "Big Reveal" at the party!
His face is just priceless! He was so excited when Bill wheeled it in~
I think he was surprised to the fullest. He just didn't expect it at all.
Brody actually "got" the whole opening presents this year! He was soooo excited to see what was in the next package!
Brody spent all day yesterday playing in his room on his rug with his pile of new toys! He was so happy and content all day long. He keeps bringing out his new stuff and showing mommy all the cool things they do! He's proud of his new fun things!
I think all the kids had fun! The bounce house was a hit! They just jumped and jumped all night long. We did take a break for the pinata though, and they all took a whack at that! FUN!!!
I am glad they all had fun. I love birthdays.
Yesterday I spent the day cleaning house and picking up some of the mess left over from the night before. It was an exhausting day, I have just been feeling a bit exhausted, so I had to get this stuff done so I can hopefully rest up this week.
Today I have to go get xrays and then head to the surgeon about my arm. I hope I get this splint off, but only if it's totally healed up. I don't want to injure myself worse. I am nervous to see what happens today. I want it off, but I am scared to get rid of it too!
Cole got his wildest dreams wish fulfilled. He wanted a 3 wheeler so badly, and Bill bought him one at an auction last month. He has kept it a secret until the "Big Reveal" at the party!
I am glad they all had fun. I love birthdays.
Yesterday I spent the day cleaning house and picking up some of the mess left over from the night before. It was an exhausting day, I have just been feeling a bit exhausted, so I had to get this stuff done so I can hopefully rest up this week.
Today I have to go get xrays and then head to the surgeon about my arm. I hope I get this splint off, but only if it's totally healed up. I don't want to injure myself worse. I am nervous to see what happens today. I want it off, but I am scared to get rid of it too!
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