That's just life...

My oh my, where does the time go?  I seem to get so occupied and busy that I don't get to sit down to the computer much.  I am on my phone more than anything and so that is how I tend to keep up with things, Facebook, email, texts, phone calls.  I am not sure how I ever survived without my internet phone.  I just don't know how Bill had one for two years without me?  How did I ever let that happen?  How come?  Why did I ever resist that upgrade?  I am soooo thankful that I finally got out of the stone age and into the reality that I can live in the 2000's. 

My lack of getting on the computer seems to mean that I am spending more and more time being active in other areas in my life.  I may be getting lazy keeping up with modern marvels and lazy corresponding with my friends, and for that I am sorry, but if it isn't something that goes through my phone somehow, I might not get it for a week or so.  I seem to only get on the computer once a week or so.   Being lazy with the computer does have it's advantages.  It does... I am spending more time organizing and cleaning my house.  I am becoming more organized with my life in general.  I am current and up to date with all my book work.  I am on top of house work.  I keep meals planned, shopping done.  I have been keeping my house spotless, and yes, it's lived in, but it's CLEAN and I am also spending more and more time with my boys.  I do more with them now than I have ever.  I have more energy and zest for life and forgive me for saying this, but for now, everyone else can just wait.  I need this time to work on us.  I need this time to devote to my family and myself.  I should have done this long ago.  Having this surgery has sure brought to light the things I was doing all wrong with my life.  I am just sorry it took so long to realize how much I had let everyone around me down.  I am really trying hard to focus on them now and put them first.  I am also learning to put myself first and take care of me.  It's not always easy, and I have had to learn to say NO a lot to a lot of things I would normally say YES to,

Things are far from perfect around here.  I have my days where Brody's taken every ounce of my will out of me for the day.  By the time Bill gets home I am ready to shut myself down and lock myself away in the bathroom.  This usually ends up in a screaming mad child throwing a major tantrum outside the bathroom door, an upset husband because the child is screaming so loud and it's echoing through the house and me melting down even more because I can't even take a two minute shower ALONE and have some peace and quiet.  Or one day this week I actually got up early, got Cole off to school, Bill off to work and Brody was still in bed.  I planned to take a nice long relaxing soak.  I knew Brody would sleep for another hour or so.. I just got myself undressed, and in the nice warm tub and no sooner laid back and shut my eyes and Brody was up screaming mad.  I jumped out, dried off and decided I am NEVER going to get a moments relaxation alone time.  I couldn't figure out why he was up screaming, until after I got him up and dressed and fed and went to get my phone and realized Bill had called my phone TWELVE times in a 10 minute time period when I was in the shower.  Brody must have heard it ringing while I was taking a bath and it woke him up.  He then had to let me know my phone was ringing.  He kept saying "mommys phone" while I was getting him dressed for the day, but I assumed he wanted to play with it and I kept telling him "mommy's phone is charging, you can't play with it now."  when in all honesty he was telling me my phone was ringing off the damn wall.  What did Bill call me for???  He called to see if I had gotten the sticker for the truck cause the license expired in Feb and he was taking the truck to Quincy, was almost there already and realized he was driving on an expired tag.  I had tried to give him that sticker 3 times and he kept telling me to hang on to it, so now he's worried about it?  Of course he is... because I was taking a "mommy break" and I guess I just didn't deserve one that day! 

Other than never getting a second to myself, I do tend to have more energy and ambition to get things done around here.  I have really been on a cleaning organizing streak.  I've gotten my closet cleaned out, book work caught up and filed away, office cleaned, dresser cleaned out, Cole & Brody's rooms purged and cleaned.  I have worked on a few kitchen cabinets, and kept up with the normal house work in the middle of it all.  I have a couple more closets I want o re organize here soon.  They bug me.  I need to move stuff around and put it where it's more handy than where it is now.  It's bugging the crap out of me. 

We got our taxes done today.  That was a major under taking.  I spent over 3 hours in there going over our figures and now I have a brain fog from going over and over it all all day long.  Ugh.  I hate tax day. 

Other than the boring daily struggles of life I haven't had a whole lot going on.  I like boring... it means nothing major is happening and that's the way we like it around here. 

Till our next adventure...