YEAH for ME!!!!

Whew, I have been hit hard.  I started noticing my stomach hurting last night about 6 and by 8 I was full on puking.  I puked all night long every 15-30 minutes I was up and down all night.  My belly hurt so bad.  This morning I finished puking at about 10:30 and then the other end started running.  I spent the day sleeping or sitting on the toilet and my guts have just rolled.  I have only eaten 2 saltine crackers since yesterday at noon.  I am soooo scared to put anything in my belly.  I have just been sipping on water.  It makes my belly growl and hurt though.  I don't want another night like last night.  It was horrible.  Tonight my whole body aches, all my muscles hurt form heaving so hard all night long.  My bones ache.  I wish this fever would go away soon. 

On to some good news that I haven't had any time to write about on here is I finally got my surgery date!!!!  I am set up for FRIDAY FEB 4th!!!!  It's so close!  I am so excited!  Good news is I have my house all cleaned up and ready to go, now I just need to get food schedules organized for the boys and help here at home lined up for me.  It's all so overwhelming.  I won't be able to lift Brody for approx 4-6 weeks.  This part scares me bad, he's such a mommas boy.  I'm hoping he can at least sit on my lap eventually without hurting me.  That will help some.  He loves cuddling with his momma!  Good news is my Grandma isn't working and she enjoys the company, so we may wear out our welcome there for a while. 

Everyone keeps asking if I am nervous... nope.  I am EXCITED!  I know deep in my heart this is what I was meant to do in life.  I can't wait to wake up from surgery and begin my life as a new woman!  Healthy and happy and more in love with my family than I am today!    I'm most nervous about everyone Else's reactions.  I know when I start to decline in size some people will treat me much differently.  Some for the better, and I've been warned some for the worst.  I know I am a strong person.,  I will just have to take it as it comes and pray that I can handle myself with dignity and hope for a brighter future for our family.  That's what this all boils down to.  I just want to be here for my family.  They're stuck with me for good!

I have so much more I'd love to say, but I am wiped out.  I just need to rest my poor achy body.  I am just exhausted.  I feel like I've been run over.