Last night was Cole's ball game in Ursa. The team played awesome and the boys were all so excited that they scored another win! So proud of them all! Last night Cole had his own little cheering section! Mom, Dennis, Gma Trone, Bev, Anna, Brody and I were all there rooting them on! Cole felt pretty special and had a couple really good hits! One got a guy to home and the other Cole made it to second base with one hit! He was proud of himself and we were cheering LOUDLY for him! He loves ball!
Today we managed to go through the boys rooms and pull out spare toys for a garage sale. We ended up with a HUGE tote to sell. This shocks me because we just de-cluttered the toy boxes before we moved, but Cole was ready to part with more toys and I threw in some of the toys Brody no longer plays with since he's growing up more and more. We skimmed them down and hopefully make a nice little profit off of them so that I can turn around and buy me some second hand clothes that will fit me this winter!
I am about done marking the garage sale stuff. I have the upstairs almost de-cluttered and all marked. I have a couple closets to go through yet, the ones that have knick knacks and such in them and then a few totes to go through from the basement. I'm kinda scared to go down there now though because of that large "worm" that was down there. That's what I just keep telling myself to make me feel better... it was a worm not a baby snake! It was dead, but it had to be alive at one point in time to get down there so it just plain creeps me out big time. EEEEEkkkkk. I might have to recruit Joe to come help me one evening go and pull the totes out in the open and have him pilfer through them and make sure nothing is in them and then I will finish up going through the stuff. Ugh. I will NOT go at this alone... I am too big of a chicken. I also need to talk to my pest man and tell him about the little snake and see what they can do about that? Maybe he has a few tricks up his sleeves? Who knows?
As for everything else... I am happy to say that we are back together after the party and all put away. I feel good about it all. It was such a fun night and I am so happy that everyone came to celebrate with us and everyone had a nice time.
Tonight is Penny's birthday. We are all meeting up at the Mexican place in Macomb for supper and a few drinks then moving on to the bar "Hangovers" to sing some Karaoke! I am excited to see everyone again and have some fun with my friends where I don't have to spend the day working to make sure things turn out okay and helping everyone else. I can just hang with my girls tonight, get weighted on and ENJOY myself for a change. Anna is coming to stay with the boys. I par boiled up some chicken this morning. I then put it in the crock pot with some BBQ sauce and am making them some twice baked potatoes for supper. I need to dig out a veggie for them and they will be all set for a masterpiece of a meal! Cole's so excited to have Anna come stay here with him till Daddy gets home!
Well I best be getting my butt in gear... It takes a few hours to make this chick beautiful, so I gotta get to work! ha ha ha
The Frakes Family Hog Roast was a HUGE success! We had a TON of people show up, even in the rain, and we are thankful for that! The food was AWESOME, the drinks were plenty, the bouncy house didn't stop bounching, and most of all I think everyone had a great time together! Beer Pong seemed to be the big hit for everyone too, my mother and Carla Rodeffer even knocked a few back with the young' ens. ha ha ha!
I didn't get out my camera and am now totally bummed about that... what the heck was I thinking? Geesh, I don't have a single photo from the party. I'm hoping someone else got a few? If you know of anyone please get me a disc with them on it and I will pay for them! I just want some pics.
Karaoke was a hit! Everyone had fun singing and goofing off. I think we might have to make this a tradition. Not sure if it will be an annual thing, but maybe once every few years or so? It was a FUN night!
We've been doing some talking about the boys birthdays. I think we might do a weenie roast! Cole wants Smores and kids to play with! That's easy enough! FUN!
Thanks for coming out everyone! We really were happy to have everyone join us in celebrating our new home.
Now I am off to whip my house back into shape and whip up some stuffed green peppers! Yum!
Sometimes it's just so hard keeping it all together, but darned I sure do try! I am running my heels off this week preparing for this hog roast. I am super excited and happy to finally have the day almost here. I have a few last minute errands to run, a baseball game or two to attend, some food to cook, some supplies to pick up, ugh... it will never end till it's time to party!
I had the honor to talk via email to a gal who is considering the DS surgery that I had. I met her through my weight loss support group site. She's been asking me questions and I've been trying to not sugar coat anything, but give that girl some honest down home answers and through writing her I have discovered one thing about me... I am BLESSED.
I realize that not everyone has the awesome support system that I have in place. I have the most amazing husband, he truly loves every bone in my body and every ounce of me. He just is the icing to my cake. I have an awesome mother. She's truly been a life saver more than once through this whole process. My mother in law is absolutely the BEST a girl could ask for. She has kept my children when I needed her the most she provided them the love and support that I wasn't physically or mentally able to give them. She has cooked us meals, and helped tidy up my house. I have awesome grandmothers who have cooked, cleaned and kept my kids too. My sister in laws are always there when I need them. I have just awesome awesome support. I truly don't know how I'd have ever gotten through these last few months without a single person that's in my support system. They are all truly a blessing to me. I love each and every one of them for their kindness and support and really don't think I truly tell them enough just how much they all mean to me and how great they make me feel knowing they are there for me.
I am ready to rock today. I have things to pick up in town. I have to watch Rochelles kids while she goes to work out and then I have to stop by and get a roaster and crock pot from my grandmas house for the party. It's getting close. The meat is thawing out as we speak and Tony is ready to come fire up the roaster first thing Saturday morning. I am sooooo HAPPY this week. I am praying for sunshine and FUN FUN FUN for everyone!
We had a wonderful fathers day. It got off to a bit of a crazy start, but turned out splendid. None of us wanted to wake up to a rainy nasty morning, but within a few hours the day turned around. The sun came out and we got things done!
Cattle got checked then we had lunch with Keith and Bev. Keith grilled some steaks on his new grill, they were melt in your mouth good! Bill and I brought the boys home and they played in the yard all afternoon while Bill and I organized and cleaned out the machine shed to get all set up and ready for the party Saturday. We are all cleaned out and cleaned up. Finally!
Keith, Bev, Joe and Anna came over for fish on the grill. It was super yummy. We had a nice meal and then some DQ ice cream cake for dessert. It's tradition around here on fathers day to get a DQ cake! Joe stayed the night and watched Hall Pass with us. It was soooo FUNNY! We all laughed our butts off.
Kegs are ordered, food is ready to be prepared, and boy am I ready to have some fun! I can't wait to see everyone and have a great time! It feels nice to have come this far on our home and to finally get the chance to let everyone come out and see it all and celebrate with us.
Today I caught up on laundry, and cleaning and bathed the boys and threw some pork steaks in the crock pot with some stew veggies and a herb tomato gravy, that I concocted with my herbs from my herb garden. It is smelling so fragrant in here right now I love it. Can't wait to see how it turns out. I paid the bills and now need to take and head to Carthage to run some errands and get a few things from the store. Maybe that can wait till tomorrow though, because I really don't feel like going to town tonight. Ugh. I really just don't feel like getting dressed or cleaned up, I am still in my jammies, been scrubbing and cleaning all day and all I want to do is shower and veg out with the boys!
Wednesday I take Brody to western to get his hearing test. I hope it all turns out okay. I'm thinking he's just a stubborn mule and won't speak because he can get away with screeching and screaming at us all the time. Ugh sooooo frustrating for sure!
Well I am off to my next project... taking all the soda out of the van and putting it up till Saturday. Theres LOTS in there!
With Fathers Day on the slope of the week, I've been doing a LOT of thinking about my father. Boy do I miss him terribly. Some days more than others, but lately it's been a LOT. I miss his advice, his hugs, his laugh, his smile, his caring personality, his voice, his security that he provided me, his cough, his eyes, his swagger... anyone that really knew my dad HAS to remember his swagger! I just plain miss him. In years past, I've had a great stand in father in my Grandpa Trone, but now that they are both gone, I just don't have anyone. I really just want to talk to him. I want him to see all that I've accomplished in life. I want him to be proud of me and my family. I want him to KNOW my family. I want him to cuddle my kids, make them laugh, give them presents, play with them... I want him here to share in life, daily things, I want him back. I can't believe he has almost been gone 9 years. It seems like only yesterday, yet it seems like forever. I have many daily reminders of him in my life, photos, gifts, his personal things, but nothing compares to having him here. It's such a sad thing when someone you love gets ripped away from you in the blink of an eye and there's really no time to say goodbye. The pain of that day will live in my heart forever, but the happiness of my life shared with him is carried along with me stronger than that ONE Day. We always had fun together. He was so special to me and such a friend through my life. He was my everything, and he knew it! This fathers day I will be celebrating all those fun and fantastic years that we did share together, and also be celebrating another great dad in my life... my husband. He sure has some pretty BIG shoes to fill, for him to compare to my own father in my eyes, but I think he's doing a pretty darned good job, and I think my boys do too! He's the light of their eyes, just like my father was to me and I am so proud that I was able to make him a Daddy, and so proud of the Daddy he's become! He is worth celebrating!
My yard is a complete MESS! Just in time for this BIG hog roast next weekend, it's completely tore up! Bill's been working on the entrance for the semi's to the machine shed, and boy is it a muddy mess. He has to haul in a lot of gravel and pour the cement pad for in front of the shed yet, and he's saying it should be done by the party, let's keep our fingers crossed! I am praying that it happens! I am excited about celebrating our new house and enjoying an evening with our friends and families. It will be a ball. I love fun nights like this. Good friends, food, conversation, and fun!
I have to go find something to whip up for supper... I don't have a thing planned tonight and need to get on it! It's nice out there, I could grill something out!
It's the weekend again and boy am I BORED. The house is clean, the laundry is done, bills are paid, DVR is all caught up... well almost, and theres nothing really I'd like to be doing? I don't really have any desires at the moment, but togetherness. I miss Bill terribly bad this week. I am not really sure why exactly, but I just feel so detached from him. Must be his schedule and mine? He's been working hard trying to get hay all caught up and baled and I've been taking Cole to ball games, and babysitting and we've just been non stop lately. I'm hoping that with this weather we can finally spend some time together this weekend, but doubtful. Things never seem to work out like we want them to.
I need a Wal Mart run for diapers here soon and I really need to take my laptop to Best buy and get the adaptor fixed. I hope like hell they can do it quickly and I'm not waiting a week for it. That crap pisses me off. I would like to drop it off, do my errands, maybe take Cole to Bonkers for a bit and then pick it up on the way home... possible? Maybe, but doubtful!
The boys have been actually getting along today. I've gotten all the laundry washed up, dried and put away already this morning. I also changed sheets on the beds and washed up and dried the old ones too. My flowers are well watered with all the rain we have gotten, I need to fertilize again next time they need a drink. That miracle grow is some amazing stuff! It's really made them shoot up and look beautiful! I love it!
I swept, mopped and scrubbed all the floors in this house the other day and it took me 2 whole hours to get through the entire house, every square inch. It looks nice and no dust bunnies again, but boy was it a HOT mess!
I need to really think about cooking up something spectacular if I'm going to be home. I feel like I need to make meals when I am actually here and plan enough for left overs for the nights we have games and are gone.
My life is pretty bland lately. Not up to much. Keeps me out of trouble that way. Theres really not a lot going on. I may just go and try to take a nap... if I can actually fall asleep that is!
I am finally over my 100 lb mark! Today I logged in at 105 lbs gone forever! I am feeling better than I have in years! I am so proud of myself for all that I have accomplished in the last few months. I get so disgusted with the people out there who say I did this the "easy" way or I am "cheating" with weight loss because I had surgery. Walk a day in my shoes people, then tell me how you would feel. I was MORBIDLY OBESE. I still am, but I took action and decided I was important enough to change for. I have tried every diet under the sun, I have worked my butt off only to gain it back and then some after falling off the plan. I was digging myself into an early grave, but now I am digging myself out, it's NOT been easy. If you think this is cheating, go ahead and think that. I had MAJOR surgery. I was under for over 8 hours. Closer to 9. I had my entire anatomy cut, re arranged and sewed back together. It's been FOUR months now and guess what??? My insides still haven't completely healed up. They won't be completely healed for up to a year. I had to make a choice to re arrange my whole anatomy so I could LIVE. I was dying a bit inside and out every day I stayed morbidly obese. I have been bigger my whole life, but I finally decided to take this step and make a go of a new healthy me.
Easy... ha. You take me now on a good day and see the struggles I have to go through. Many many bathroom breaks, upset stomach for no reason, nausea, vomiting at times even when you are doing EVERYTHING right, the complete mind screwing that food plays on you in every day life is just a small aspect of this whole mess. Slowing down your pace, planning for eating, planning for the after effects of eating. What to drink, what not to drink, how much to drink. It's all such a complicated mess, but has it been worth it?? For me and my lifestyle I'd have to say yes. Fatigue... boy was I dog ass tired the first 8 weeks. Some days there I had so much trouble making it across the room to the bathroom and then I'd have to come back and take a nap! Lack of calories and lack of nutrients really does mess with you. Nutrients. Oh boy, there's a BIG component of this surgery. Nothing absorbs inside me. This includes the things I NEED to absorb to live. I have to take HANDFULS of vitamins daily to function. I have to drink the nastiest tasting protein shakes daily. I have to plan for snacks to include high protein supplements and I have to watch how much I drink before and after meals so I don't get sick. It's all such a struggle It still is. Easy??? I don't think so. The weight falling off is the easy part, I'll give you that, but the rest of it is NOT easy at all. It's completely mentally exhausting to deal with what a bariatric patient has to deal with on a daily basis. This weight I've dealt with my whole life, being fat was EASY. Getting healthy is HARD. It's hard for someone to wrap your head around this whole process until you are the one having to go through it. I want to scream at the semi fat people " STOP EATING NOW... YOU DON'T WANT TO GO THROUGH THIS." You get to a point where to survive surgery is your only option. I had to do this. I gave my efforts to other options and obviously they failed me, or I failed them however you look at it. I am a failure. I always have been. I have failed myself for MANY MANY years, but for once in my life I am succeeding! I am coming out on top! I am feeling like YOU feel daily. I've never felt this good inside, so I'd never had known what I was missing, but I could see it in your faces. I knew I was missing out, but until now, I didn't know what LIFE was and what LIVING really meant.
You can say what you want behind my back, you can say what you want to my face, but I did this for ME ME ME. I am HAPPY I had this surgery, easy way out, cheating, beating the system, whatever in the hell you want to call it, I did it. I am happy I did it and I am getting healthier by the day. I could still die tomorrow. It could happen, but at least I will be the one going to heaven knowing that while I was here I have given it my all to live my LIFE the best I can.
Food... ahhh food. You got to eat to live. It's torture. It's like setting alcohol in front of an alcoholic and telling them "You have to drink THREE drinks a day, don't drink more than that, don't drink less than that, ONLY three" Addiction is a nasty thing. I am a food addict. I have been my whole life. I am learning to deal with it, but boy has my whole LIFE changed doing it.
Now, off to the next 100 lbs. I'm afraid this will be a bit slower coming off, but once It does I will be sooooo PROUD of MYSELF for all that I've done and all that I struggled through to get there. Up next... a BOOB JOB!!! ha ha ha ha! My boobies are shrinking along with the rest of me and it's strange!
