With Fathers Day on the slope of the week, I've been doing a LOT of thinking about my father. Boy do I miss him terribly. Some days more than others, but lately it's been a LOT. I miss his advice, his hugs, his laugh, his smile, his caring personality, his voice, his security that he provided me, his cough, his eyes, his swagger... anyone that really knew my dad HAS to remember his swagger! I just plain miss him. In years past, I've had a great stand in father in my Grandpa Trone, but now that they are both gone, I just don't have anyone. I really just want to talk to him. I want him to see all that I've accomplished in life. I want him to be proud of me and my family. I want him to KNOW my family. I want him to cuddle my kids, make them laugh, give them presents, play with them... I want him here to share in life, daily things, I want him back. I can't believe he has almost been gone 9 years. It seems like only yesterday, yet it seems like forever. I have many daily reminders of him in my life, photos, gifts, his personal things, but nothing compares to having him here. It's such a sad thing when someone you love gets ripped away from you in the blink of an eye and there's really no time to say goodbye. The pain of that day will live in my heart forever, but the happiness of my life shared with him is carried along with me stronger than that ONE Day. We always had fun together. He was so special to me and such a friend through my life. He was my everything, and he knew it! This fathers day I will be celebrating all those fun and fantastic years that we did share together, and also be celebrating another great dad in my life... my husband. He sure has some pretty BIG shoes to fill, for him to compare to my own father in my eyes, but I think he's doing a pretty darned good job, and I think my boys do too! He's the light of their eyes, just like my father was to me and I am so proud that I was able to make him a Daddy, and so proud of the Daddy he's become! He is worth celebrating!
My yard is a complete MESS! Just in time for this BIG hog roast next weekend, it's completely tore up! Bill's been working on the entrance for the semi's to the machine shed, and boy is it a muddy mess. He has to haul in a lot of gravel and pour the cement pad for in front of the shed yet, and he's saying it should be done by the party, let's keep our fingers crossed! I am praying that it happens! I am excited about celebrating our new house and enjoying an evening with our friends and families. It will be a ball. I love fun nights like this. Good friends, food, conversation, and fun!
I have to go find something to whip up for supper... I don't have a thing planned tonight and need to get on it! It's nice out there, I could grill something out!
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