Where did Feb go???

I have been spending all my time at home.  I only go to town about once a week to get my laundry done and then stay home the rest of the time.  I am comfortable here and Brody can do his own thing with his toys and play.  It works for us.   I miss people.  I miss having someone to talk to. 

Bill works so long hours.  He comes in at night and is exhausted.  He showers, eats and sleeps.  If he has to get back out he does and then comes home back to bed.  He's so tired.  I have been trying not to bother him with my problems.  He's got so much on his plate right now.  I know he misses us.  He takes Cole with him all the time.  He plays with Brody every night when he gets home.  That doesn't leave any "us" time, but I am okay with that as long as the boys are getting theirs.  I can wait.  I know there will be some me time soon!  I just have to wait my turn!   We do find ourselves laying in bed at night totally exhausted and one of us will say "did I tell you this..." or "hey, this happened."  it's so funny.  Then we drift off to sleep. 

I am still pretty wore out most times.  I am feeling like I am finally eating a bit more than 3-4 bites.  Maybe taking in 4-6 now with the baby spoon.  Some meals more, some less.  I am trying.  Today when I weighed in I was right at the 45 lb lost mark.  ( I had been telling people my weight loss since before surgery, but was told by some people on my surgical group forum that I needed to state my weight loss since surgery.  Before doesn't count!)  so I am at the 45 lb mark.  I am losing at least a pound a day.  When I don't lose a pound a day, the next day I will lose 2 or 3.  It's funny how that works! 

Tomorrow is March already!  Geesh.  Where did Feb go?  I guess I've been lost in a post op fog.  The days have just flew past and the month is over already! 

I am catching up with a lot of shows on my DVR and I have been getting into some Lifetime movies here lately!  I love a good cry!  I think Brody thinks I am nuts when I sit here watching TV sniffling and bawling to a stupid movie!

Tomorrow I am going to spend the day with my mom.  I've missed her.  She worked all weekend long and I haven't seen her since Thursday.  That about kills me.  She calls daily, sometimes two or three times daily, but it's not the same!

Today the therapist came and spent an hour working with Brody.  She's scheduled to come once a week now for the next 6 months to see if we can work with getting him to talking and building his vocabulary.  He's just not a talker, he's more of a screamer and it's sooooo annoying.  Hopefully we can build up his speech or his sign language and he will become a lot less frustrated when things don't go the way he wants.  Lack of communication seems to be a big problem for him.  He gets frustrated so easily.  We meet with Dr Lindsey on March 10th so we will know more about his developmental delays then. 

I also go see my surgeon for my one month post op on March 10th. 

This Thursday night is my support group in Galesburg.  I can't wait to go see everyone and learn some new stuff.